2 weeks already

How has it been 2 weeks since we found out?? how has it been 13 days since we birthed our precious boy?
its not like our days are geling into one because of the lack of sleep due to night feeds..we weren't allowed to experience that.
how has 2 weeks of sadness and heartache gone so quickly??

i'm tired, i've never felt more tired in my whole life. i could honestly sleep for a whole 24hours without even realising it. But our two chickens wont let that happen. people tell us we're lucky we already have kids, a reason to get up everyday. but are we really? for me already having kids is a constant reminder of what we're missing out on.

i ache, my whole body from top to toe aches all day.

That big black hole is trying to get me, i feel like i'm in a constant daily battle trying to fill it in before it gets too big and swallows me, it's exhausting.

2 whole entire weeks