Mum and i spent a whole day out at a shopping centre and spent waay to much money on a variety of things. Most importantly though i bought a ring, amethyst and diamonds. Jacks birthstone. im so in love with it. The store we found it in had the same ring but in about 4 sizes too small, so the lady rang their other store and what do u know? same ring in my exact size. i'm a huge believer in signs and took that as one.
Mum and i lunched and coffeed. My mum, my go to girl. i still call her mummy when i need her. i called her mummy the second i saw her face the day we found out Jack died. i've shared everything about Jack with her, she's one of the 2 or 3 people who know everything, how i really feel right now, my plans for the future. i'm so glad i can talk to her about my son, her grandson, with a smile on my face, remembering all the beautiful details that were him.
Mr man shed a few tears today, the first since Jacks funeral, all he did was go into the nursery to put the vaccum cleaner in there out of the way because we have builders coming over in the morning. that room always bought us soo much joy. We'd often go in there in there and look at the mountains of clothes and nappies and soft toys. its such a beautiful room.
i havent been in there myself, not for 2 weeks and 1 day, i cant yet
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